"They say there is a young lady in New Haven who is beloved of that almighty Being, who made and rules the world, and that there are certain seasons in which this great Being, in some way or other invisible, comes to her and fills her mind with exceeding sweet delight, and that she hardly cares for anything, except to meditate on him--that she expects after a while to be received up where he is, to be raised up out of the world and caught up into heaven; being assured that he loves her too well to let her remain at a distance from him always. There she is to dwell with him, and to be ravished with his love and delight forever. Therefore, if you present all the world before her, with the richest of its treasures, she disregards it and cares not for it, and is unmindful of any pain or affliction. She has a strange sweetness in her mind, and singular purity in her affections; is most just and conscientious in all her actions; and you could not persuade her to do anything wrong or sinful, if you would give her all the world, lest she should offend this great Being. She is of a wonderful sweetness, calmness and universal benevolence of mind; especially after those seasons in which this great God has manifested himself to her mind. She will sometimes go about from place to place, singing sweetly; and seems to be always full of joy and pleasure; and no one knows for what. She loves to be alone, and to wander in the fields and on the mountains, and seems to have someone invisible always conversing with her."
This is from a letter written by Jonathan Edwards about his future wife. I found it because of a song by Sherri Youngward called “She Looks to the Sky.”
Ever since I first heard that song, it’s been stuck in my head. It was my anthem all senior year of A&M, the epitome of the godly woman I someday want to be. Granted, I never dreamed of being the weirdo who walked around singing all the time (but that kind of happened anyway…) or the crazy person who’s too in love with Jesus to really notice anything else (but that’s inevitable I suppose), but the line that really stuck with me was “you can offer her anything; her affections are all for Him only.”
God’s been really working on me to focus my affections on Him above all else. Of course, it’s not easy. It’s a process….a really long one. It’ll probably take my whole life. But I guess I’m OK with that.